Resblog

so…i am totally resolved to do many things. i have been meaning to get them up here for a while; i think meg must have been feeling lonely all up in here with her badass. things i want to work on:
1) being more comfortable w. loneliness. somewhere around 21 i became completely phobic of solitary time. it’s gotten really bad–i can’t go out alone and i rarely can function without the knowledge that i will not be alone. i need to change this. i am trying slowly working my way to taking more time outs and down time. there’s been this adjacent problem of double and triple booking–like, “oh we should hang out,” and then i invite other people to do whatever it is we are doing. i think it’s the need to be but not be the social center superstar or whatevs. i need to not do this also. one-on-one time and lone time is a must have.
2) gym. but for me.
3) less clothing.
4) less extravagance now and more travel. i think i fritter away too much effort/time/money/mental energy on the hit et nunc when i should be sparing it for later. and i certainly need to travel back to germany. soon.
5) being a better long-distance friend. i have a hard time doing this. i get busy. i put things off.
6) less internet. funny i am writing this on an internet blog, but it’s totally true. ebay–this one’s lookin your way.